Friday night, i watched "Hi My Sweetheart" from about 11.20pm until about 12plus. My mother was sleeping and my sister JUST came home. It was raining and then i went to close the windows. Just because i close it a little too loud and i asked my mother(who is sleeping) to close the bedroom windows. Because i know that she can hear me. That's why i ask her to close while i close the rest.
GUESS what!
My sister : A! Can't you just close it yourself and be softer. You think you're the only one who is not working ah! People have to wake up early the next morning to work!
My mood : WTF! You come home bad mood then come and scold me.
Me : What.. i just ask ah ma to close the bedroom windows only ma.
My sister : Think of your mother la. Work so hard then she trying to sleep and then you disturb her. She very tired one leh.
My mood : She tired, then i not tired ah?! You all go work, I stay at home do the housework for you still have to do my projectssssss! After she bath finish, which is about 12.45. She ask me to off the laptop and sleep because I'm WASTING electricity! _l_ And because, I'm always looking pale at night, she said later watch until i die. LIKE F***! Watch one online show only!(because she came home with her bf, he was sitting beside me watching the show with me)I said i will off as soon as the episode end is about in 8minutes. Know what she said...Sister : You cannot watch tml ah? Now so late already.My mood : You yourself watch tv can watch until 4am! now only 12.45 say very late D:So i ignored her and continue watching. Then she give me the "Fine..ignore me huh" face.SaturdayBefore she sleep,she told my mother that I'm still watching the show. Because..the next morning, i was the first to wake up. And when my mother woke, she said you ytd watch the show until very late hor..Next time you do that, your laptop and tv will be gone.I'm so freaking attempted to say why my sister can watch until 4am and i cant. But,CONTROL. Don't wanna add oil onto fire.My mood : Ma de..tell ah ma i watch until very late. You watch out! (you referring to my sister)Did my stuffs and totally did not touch the housework. HELLO..I've been doing it for the past 4 days! Cos Fri went out with Sk..so didn't do..but i did a bit. so i can say i did 4.2 days of housework! Went to have a walk in the night since I'm all alone at home. As usual! And came home at 11.50pm. My mother was hitting the roof. But i just told her i went to have a walk cos i cant stand staying at home. She told me don't give her such excuses. Slept on the floor cos i did not want to sleep with them. Them my mother just THROW my stuffs on the floor! LIKE..FUCK! My mood : Hurt and flaming in angerTried to sleep but so hard..... and sleep.Today
Woke up feeling numb. Mentally numb. Heart felt so heavy and everything so dull and tasteless to me.
Before my mother went to the market,
she kicked me and told me to get lost. Cos she wanted to take something.
My mood : F***! Cant you say excuse me.
Before she left the house, she said to hang the clothes out. So my sister woke up and hang the clothes. Saw the way she hang, sure get scolding from my mother. Thought for a while and decided not to tell her since she's ignoring me.
True enough, when my mother came back, she saw the clothes, she asked who hanged it in a angry tone. At that time, my sister was talking on the phone and so
i said "the person talking on the phone". My mother's whole expression changed!
Mother : What 'that person talking on the phone'.. she is your sister.Me : ya la. her la.
Mother : What kind of attitude is this. You know i can kill you now.My mood : KILL LA! Over such a trivial matter, you say you want to kill me! I dare you to take the knife and stab me now! Damnit
And I just walked off.
Then they were discussing about CNY and deciding weather to go to Malaysia a not. My father called and my sister said no. Cos I'm having main exams right after CNY.
Me : If you all(sister and mother) want to go, then go ah. I alone here can already.Sister : Got ask for your opinion ah? (In a very rude voice)
Me : I'm just saying since you're DYING to go back *walks off*Because she keeps saying that she don't want to stay here during CNY and keep thinking of ways to go back.
Mother is talking to me as if i committed some big sin that cannot be forgiven and sister is ignoring me as if I'm invisible.Seriously! So many people dying in this world. Why am i not one of them. I mean NOW! Not in the future.
I'm going to find a job and not let my mother know about it. Because my sister is always saying
I'm living off my mother! FUCK!
Heard enough of this and i can't stand it!
This is a really long post. Had to type it out otherwise, i will go crazy thinking about it. Keeping it to oneself is very
'xin ku'
