Woke up today feeling so down!!! Everything was like so unclear to me. I don't know what am i suppose to do. So i just drank a cup of milk and then online le.
I long for someone to talk to me... But at the same time i did not want to talk to anyone...
Finally..my di started talking to me. I felt a little better as someone is talking to me. But at the same time,i couldn't say out my sadness. I don't know how to put it in words..

Later in the night,i still have to go out with Rach to the Amway meeting..I really don't feel like going. But i cannot leave her alone with that two person.
I don't know! I really don't know! [if i should go a not]


Tuesday
Went to gym with Rach and Jing. It was raining and my slipper got wet ~_~ Was finding a plastic to my wet slippers but couldn't find any. So i have no choice but to put it into my shoe bag. The last thing we did before we left was playing the fish game on the machine. Gosh! One of the machine is like so jammed up. So hard to pull it. We played until our legs and hands nearly turned jelly~
Bathed and went to Simei to eat Kim Chi Hot Pot. It has been such a long time when we last eat there together :)
Walked to my house and then rent a Twilight CD.While watching the show,me and jing are painting our nails.. She painted purple while i painted a dark shade of navy blue. It looks like black without lights. But under the light,it looks blue. I'm a dark(?,not sure of what other words to describe) person. So i cannot paint bright colours. Otherwise,i will look so weird! The show is not bad. But how Rach tells me the story from the book,i think the book would be nicer. So..Rach...can you lend me?? (:

They left my house at around 7.30pm. While i pack up the things and went to take my shower before eating dinner.

My sister and kenneth came home shortly after i started eating my dinner. Then they did what they are suppose to do.
Because of one misunderstanding! The two of us(kenneth and me) fall out on each other. And of cos,my sister took the side kenneth and scolded me for being rude.
Ok.. i admit i did not hear him asking me.. But i cannot stand the way his body language's msg. To me, it feels like he is demanding me for something of mine. and seriously! I did not hear him asking me. So i said : OI! when he took it. He shouted back at me and said: Wa lao! what kind of attitude are you showing! I did not say anything as i know it wasn't his fault. But it is also not entirely my fault. My sister showed me black face and went to the room.
I continued watching my tv while she's in the room. He came out of the room and went home.

Mum came back and my sister talk my mum something about Rachel. I did not hear what they are saying cause they talked behind closed doors. I was a little disturb by what they are doing. I pretend to be paying attention to the tv but in fact,i was trying to hear what they are saying. My sister came out and told me to lower down the volume of the tv as she's trying to sleep. So i lower it down. And guess what! She's in the room talking to my mother until i came into the room.(which means,the show has ended) So much for sleeping!

She suddenly asked me this very random qn : you went to cut your hair today? Then i replied: why? She said: I only asked you did you cut your hair and yet you show me this kind of attitude! Me: I just ask you why you ask me such a qn. Do you have the need to shout at me! Her: What kind of attitude is this. Just now you were so rude to kenneth and now,you are so rude to me. COME ON!! I'm only asking why my sister asked me that qn and this is what she reply me. Me: *explaining to her why i shouted at him and talk her is not my fault that i did not hear him asking me* Her: (saying something about me treating my friends better than my own family) Think about it la. You are not young anymore. In my heart,i was thinking,he is not even my family. He is just an outsider who is a free loader in my house! I'm sorry for saying it but i CANNOT TAKE IT ANYMORE! HE IS NOTHING TO ME! I will treat him nice out of respect.because he is older than me. But,I will NEVER treat him as a member of the family! I did not say anything after my sister said her last sentance(orange words). (i want to forget this part)



Monday
Online the whole day and helped YuTing with some maple quests. Trained Rach's cleric too.
That's all for the day..
Lol.. boring day right?
No problem YuTing :D